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AHKEI BOMB PRIS AMANDA ANDRINA HANGQI WANLING KEN FATASS NAVJOTH TOHWEE EDDIE SHAWN NICHOLAS CHEN

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008, 11:55 PM

dedicated to my dearest grandmother 1928- 18/11/2008

BYE BYE
by mariah carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were the times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but i try not cry
As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But It's like you gone too soon
No the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

upon hearing the news that you were in the hospital having to suffer the pain of losing your legs, i dare not plucked up my courage to visit you. i didnt want to get upset by seeing what you were going through. On the day you had decided to leave us forever, i was glad that your sufferings had all ended. however, i couldn't let go the facts that you are gone. i persuaded myself to take a look at the skeletal body which had been caused by decades of years of consuming 20 over pills for each day.
and then, i could not bring myself towards the coffin where you were lying in.
forgive me, grandma.

and now...
you will never get to try my reformulated spagetti, my heartfelt baked pastries and our own culture delicacies which are cooked by me
you will never be there to ask if i have had my lunch.
you will never hear me singing the-not-to-be-forgotten childhood songs.
and my noise will never be delievered to your ears anymore.
i always love you no matter how people see you as a country pumpkin or uneducated.
i will not forget your selfless love, tender care and grandmother-ly look.
i will never forget the days you piggyback me home from nursery school..the days i was hospitalised..you took the effort to make me take medicine regularly and persuaded me for daily injections and blood tests.
you saw my pain and bought me sweets.
whenever i was upset, you bought me happy meals.
whenever i was about to accept the punishments from my mother, you would be the one who pushed me aside and protect me. it's your all-love, sacrifice, care and concern

goodbye.
and yes you know, i love you.
may you rest in peace