Told you so

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i'm huiwen.
eighteen.
28march91.
attached <3.
redfoxventures.
temasekpolytechnic

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is it our nature or we are nurtured to be like this?

Sunday, May 31, 2009, 2:35 PM

when you have come to a certain age, you will start to think about the events or incidents occured in your life..

and i have come to a conclusion that humans are the most scariest creatures on earth.
so what i can tell you is that please take care because i can longer protect you and guide you.
you have taken up this path and i am no one to tell you things.
i cant give you my piece of advice although it might helps if you heed it.

Many times, i was astonished and in fear. i wonder how is this person managing a two-life when one life is so hard to deal with..or doing things in double standards which often contradict with their principles..

no doubt that these are all over the places. however the number of such people doing such things are increasing like nobody business.

friends are to be doubted. i mean CERTAIN.
the one who always claims that she would be with you will turn out to be someone who hurts you the most. once bitten, twice shy. i really dont know how although my heart wants me to follow where i should go.

at this point of time, trust is no longer important because most of them turns out to betray it.
one of my friends said," the key to friendship is to have your two eyes closed and your hands opened to embrace whatever it takes."
however will some shameless person able to sleep on a pillow without guilt even if they were treated like this when they dont deserve to?

"it's a heart of gold" who to prove when the world has infinite number of ugly hearts covering the earth..

now my perspective has changed. im going to take things easy and let things go in their own way.
i'll never insist the way that would brings a better outcome while others think it wouldnt be that case. try hard to come with a better solution is difficult. no one is standing in your view to see things.

from now on, i can only be a listener and will only strike in protest - silently or otherwise, occasionally. i dont want to get involved in things that makes me feel as though lemon juice was spilled into the blood pumping into my heart - fatal.

p/s: im going to Philippines on 10 june to 13 june. and i like this song from Duffy - i'm scared.

I'm scared to face another day
b'cause the fear in me just won't go away.

LA and i - not fated to the very max

Wednesday, May 27, 2009, 12:21 AM

MY LA TRIP IS CANCELED ONCE AGAIN. WHAT THE @!#$^*

im was so looking forward to June holiday because i thought i would be spending my great 2 weeks in California.
apparently, kiasi singaporeans are afraid of swine flu. but now US is under control already.
i received a call from Chan's Brother in late morning telling me that the tour group couldnt be formed because the minimum pax is 8.

RARRRR!! now buying Marshmallow PEEPS will be a big fat dream for me. DAMNNNNNNN!

however there are possibilities that i would be going to Philiphines or Taiwan. Because my dad still cant decide where he wants to go.

but look at a lighter note, the money i was going to spend in LA is now going to be part of my savings and SHOPPING SPREE cash :D:D:D:D
p/s: Singapore Sales are coming!!!!

finally i know why science school has nerds.. because all subjects have heavy contents, never ending tests, never ending assignment, never ending lab reports, never ending practical and EXAMINATIONS! one year left to chiong our GPA so everything is a must, every homework will be good practices to make us learn.

it's so hectic and i cant help to feel like ponning lectures to catch my sleep.
everyday sleep around 2 and must wake up a few hours later at 6.30 and catch my 1 1/2 hr bus ride to school so i'll reach school at 9.
that's why i couldnt wait to go LA but now it's CANCELED!

in the night, i keep having this hungry feeling..till now. LOL! i thought how alienated i am eating so much yet im not contented.
i gave a shock to many of my friends that i can eat a 1 foot long SUBWAY MELT with 2 double chocolate chips and a large diet coke for a meal. and eating one Double McSpicy meal upsized on my own for dinner.
is it because im feeling the stress running in my blood, screaming "more food helps to relieve stress"?
or am i a glutton?
Luckily, that time i went to Mary's house to study, i saw a box of snacks and she gave me one INDO tapioca chips. and now im munching them into my stomach to shut the mouth of hormones which give my brain signal telling me im hungry.
MARY stones :D

and i was having diarrhoea this early! Diarrhoea comes with a great package - Diarrhoea+Weird dreams+Cold sweat+exhausting.
i thought i was in the Willy Wonka's fantasy.
GREAT my ass.

frankly speaking, my attitude for my current unit has become I-DONT-GIVE-A-DAMN. Maybe im sick of the on-and-on situations, double troubles and the people who dont like to listen and always trying to interpret. this kinda pissed me off. let me know when im needed. let me know when the unit is ready. then i'll decide if this unit worths my time and effort.

okay IM TIRED. IT'S the word DAMN i should say (:
toodoos :D

Saturday, May 23, 2009, 6:46 PM

my very next art work is...

draw a very typical part of TP and do technics to make it look WOW.

this is my sketch book [going to hand in damn soon].

you know what my teacher ask about this drawing...?
is this some kind of baseball? DAMN IT. because pool was not famous in his time!

later part of april, school anniversary

HARMONY! i bought a sunflower for her and bought some other flowers for the sec 4 who got award.
and a chocolate treat for all my guides (:

p/s: i have not receive the photo i had taken with hui peng T.T
and i miss her alot ):

DURING OUR HOLIDAYS

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD he is my eggplant :D

back to school..see such a eye sore thing.

what a disgrace. library is not a suitable place. we dont want to watch free shows!

SAY HI TO MIC..she is my favourite. if i were to take bus 15 all alone for my whole 3 years in poly, i'll be some damn autistic adult EVER. we have something in common (:
crap, play, sleep in lectures and tutorials, skip lectures like nobody business and yet our results are still better than those who go lectures :DDDDDD she is my buddy MANZXWZXW.

AT NEWATER ONCE AGAIN

want some tim sum buffet? here we are at exculsor hotel (: so lao kok kok place but it serves nice tim sum (((:

huiwen is master of scorpion plaits (: maybe only for her own hair style or her sis. HEHE /:

BTW, im feeling the stress all over me. everyday is like O level.
every moment is like taking final exam. EVERY SECOND in poly kills me.
im not coping very well but im still managing.
TRYING HARD.
ROAR OUT the discomfort, unhappiness and tireness in me.
i want HOLIDAY! Yay! im still going LA and pris is going to JAPAN :DDDDDDDD

Friday, May 08, 2009, 12:54 AM

There are so many things going on nowadays.
im affected badly.
because someone i know who really dotes me alot is suspected to have Tuberculosis [which is known as TB].
According to my sis, one of the symptom is that joints will loosen and cause bones to dislocate and breathing difficulties.
this has already happened to him a few weeks ago.
im worried for him. do you want to know the BEST DAMN THING?
he is engaged and going to get married in December.
im scared. i dont like the feeling of losing someone. it reminds me of my descended grandma.
BYE BYE by Mariah Carey often rings by my ear sides. how can i forget how much she love me?
remember one funny and stupid part..when i was about 4, my mischievous act had caused her to choke on MacDonald french fries when she was snoring. and yet she didnt even reprimand me.
everytime she protected me from those caning marks..secretly kept a pack of sweets in my bag. [because my mum strictly banned us from eating sweets since young till primary 3]
every single thing..i still cant let go.
my emotions are too overwhelming now.
am i losing another person who is so darling to me?
mix of feelings.
this is so wrong.
and when my gastro problems knocked onto my door, i know im starting to lose my appetite again. vomit,diarrhoea,upset.

BTW.P/S:
Truly..im disgusted by you.
knowing who you are now gives me a clearer view who should i give my trust to.
no longer you.

i dont need some confused people to tell me what to do or advise me because at the first place, they dont even know what they are doing. dont call a kettle black when you are one.
I dont need anyone to tell me how to love someone, how to do things in right way.
freaking stupid because i got my own life and ways of doing things.

i was blinded by your ulterior motive. you contradict your own principles and i found many thumb knots in your life.
FREAKING LIFE i dont want to know.

i wish that you will be exposed by my dear friends in front of everybody:D