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redfoxventures.
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009, 10:36 PM

im not suppose to blog now because im working early in the morning and going to run an errand and back to MJR for ventures events.

i know i have not blogged about my bday. but let me just rant abit.

after blog hopping for almost 2 hours. i somehow have this feeling inside me..a feeling that has lost since i graduated.
thinking of teachers now.. i cant even remember mrs tan..who is known as prof. snape all along.. i mean i took a long time to remember who's mrs tan. i only remember mr lee, ernie and mdm cheah who gave me the most impact in my secondary school life.

haha dealing with poly maths now isnt a problem. because now i see why people always say practice makes perfect.

currently, im in redfox ventures..an active member although my boyfriend didnt really show support or should i say he shows little support.
erm. being in such a situation where guys are more than girls, it has become something that im used to. not much of a worry because im always faithful as this 16 months show.
in guides, all i thought of was to bring up the girls and make them a better future leaders. because we were going to spend our good 1-3 years together, i screwed them, knocked them down, pissed them off, yelled at them and hardly talked to them nicely [sounds like im another navjoth.. HAHAHA.] so maybe by learning the hard way, they would forever remember in their heart. being a failure or successor, i dont know..im not in the right position to judge myself. but at least now i know that they appreciate what i have done although they hate me like shit in the past or maybe some of them do now for whatever reason it can be.

now in scouts, things are different. we were not there bonding with them when they first invested. somehow we are seen in no position to instruct, advise and teach them. maybe not as a whole but for the female side. however it has become a explicit fact that females can join ventures. we are here, hello?

our roles in ventures is to work as a committee and come out with events and we work it out together with each other help.
how about scouts? bad news to them.. system has changed. from the past i know ventures and scouts are never one system. but now we came into the picture due to the changes made by the leaders and have to create this bridge to pull our gap closer.

due to manpower problem, ventures are now involved to advise, instruct and teach.
we are there to assist the leaders or for any other reasons that you might think. if my job is just to be a programmer in ventures and not involve in scouts, i would be stretching my toes and need not crack my brain for any further notice or events, trying to squeeze some spare time out of my busy schedule,to ask my dear ventures down for meeting and help for planning. we are not here for no good reasons. think..never were they in our shoes looking from our angle.

we never want to screw them ..piss them off. it was just one incident and they are now bearing grudges. let's see what we can do on 14 april. i cant wait for the day. we dont need time to accept them because we are ever ready. it's them who need time. so use this time given [1 month time ] and learn what's maturity. and would they one day appreciate what we do for them in the future like my dear guides? trying harder to make things possible might give a backfire. soon we shall see.

im not trying to give any wise words or nag on. because these have always been in my heart that i have to let it out.



and MM AQM.soon im going to leave you because these two words, our welfare, are the last that come into your dictionary. not to see you anymore when holiday ends. goodbye.