Told you so

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if i ain't got you baby

i'm huiwen.
eighteen.
28march91.
attached <3.
redfoxventures.
temasekpolytechnic

AHKEI BOMB PRIS AMANDA ANDRINA HANGQI WANLING KEN FATASS NAVJOTH TOHWEE EDDIE SHAWN NICHOLAS CHEN

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in this deep hot lava pool

Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 12:45 AM

you don't know what's next..my future is laid on the hands of the unknown. thinking of middle age woman about 38, give birth to her first baby daughter, how is the baby daughter going to live her life if the middle age woman were to be in the heaven when her child's still young? or even worse. at the age of 55, her youngest child is only at the age of 13.

now problems arising, i know i'm not that likable child anymore. ideas, thoughts - always conflicting. and that makes me so pissed.
these few years, i have seen what's going on in this family.
things i wish not see or say. every time i find it so difficult to swallow this whole chunk down my throat.

we have a plan. plan of being independent. we know that one day the same blood flowing in us will just mutate. siblings would split into two parts. we will never come to a peaceful agreement or talk.

age gap is one of the biggest problem which makes all of us lose faith in. i never know this can be a problem as long as we treasure this special fated relationship until jealousy burns your hearts.
till the very day, even we turn this table upside down, i will still stand strong with who i am, how i am and what i have.
im ready since young, we are trained to be independent even the sense of insecure and being dependent still laze around in our body.

everything is a problem. and humans are the main cause.
I'll be expecting things to happen. but I wont accept and resign to my fate.

f*king breastless woman

Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 8:58 PM

i bet you are not aware that my hate for you has grown from 0, gradually to 10^infinity.
one good phrase for you : go to hell you fucking bitch.

you might seems to be some GREAT-OH-NICE person in people eyes but it's a explicit fact to me that you are a despicable wretch. everytime you piss me off, i feel like eating durians and spit that durian-taste-contaminated saliva on you. EWWWW..awful right? for people like this, you deserve a good spit.

Asking my conscience, what major things that make you so pissed off that your mouth gets bigger each time you complain.. you are just petty over minute things. results, project, homework, outfit, behaviour, attitude. even bother if i attend classes. it's my freedom, my style of doing things. i did nothing to offend you.

Every time i try to forget about what you have done behind my back, your words and nonsense kills my forgivings for you. you are such a pain in my neck.
your sleepless nights are all caused by your guilt. your bed, pillow, bolster;everything you have to make you feel comfortable to sleep, ALL ARE GUILT.
your conscience knows that you are acting against it. that's why you cant even start a normal conversation or you use your pretence to cover up all your disgusting side.

i hate you. ALOT and really.
you make me puke upside down because you are too disgusting, too pretentious.
you are the worst creature because you cant wait to show people how benevolence you are, how righteous you are and how a born-leader you are. but the true you is a null.
there's nothing good i can see in you. you are critical in your thinking, never know there's alternative. your dominance is pissing everyone off. your OH-ARE-YOU-OKAY (*act sweet voice) is making people sick. your biasness has made you the worse person on earth.

my eyes are meant for beautiful things and humans.
if any bad falls on you, blame yourself for being ugly - heart, soul and body. that's why i cant see you now.
dont piss me off anymore..i wont take your nonsense, i warn you.

_|_ you

do you know i miss you, Friend?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 1:29 AM

i dont know if what i heard is true. but i think since there's such a thing and people are spreading, 80% of what had been said should be true.
and i bought something for you. maybe i would give or maybe hesitate.

i have just came back from Metro Manila, Philippine.
it was my worst trip ever.

the countries that i have travelled these good 12 years were
1. australia [melbourne, sydney, gold coast]
2. south korea
3. china [wuhan, fujian province: fu zhou]
4. malaysia [kota tinggi, kuala lumpur, genting highland, ipoh, tioman island]
5. hongkong
6. taiwan [from taipei all the way to tainan, gaoxiong]
7. thailand [phuket]
8. indonesia [bali]
9. philippine [metro manila]

and out of the 9 countries, Metro manila gives me the deepest impression and it's a WOW!
i'll update you with photos (:

there aint nobody better

Tuesday, June 09, 2009, 10:08 PM

things are looking great now. no more words, just a hug, we understood. it's the telepathy.

we are not going to let go of our hands anymore <3

YaY! i can finally enjoy my holiday :D no worries manZXZXZXW HAHAHA!

are we meant to be?

12:12 AM

yesterday i was thinking the one whole night.

plugged in my ear piece and tuned to "if i aint got you".
memories of the very beginning were playing like an old movie film in my head.
everything from the scratch was perfect and sweet. yet now everything seems to be affected by the past. we are not screaming at each other, we are not quarreling. it's not right. we started to give laconic replies because both of us sense something is not right.

now, im lost.
why are we like this? 1 1/2 year is not easy.

i couldnt fathom if you were to leave me.
this is not what we both want.
im throwing tantrum - crying, screaming, yelling.
nothing is right to make me feel better.
skip meals, sleeping, trying to forget how hurtful it gets - seems like i was arrowed by an amazon.
i couldnt feel your comfort even though you told me 'i love you'. this is hurtful.
the word 'tomorrow ' is too scary. i dont know how to face it. i'm scared.

the hurt is too much and cant be described, this is not even inflicting 1/4 of what im feeling now and then.

dont let the past influence get you down.

btw:
and damn fuck. the joke played by all of you is not funny. i dont give a damn to whatever you guys say anymore. try me if you think im gullible __

Sunday, June 07, 2009, 12:54 PM

Camp was so-so. the only part i like was friday night with jia rui and ervin, dragonboating with wenfeng [my right hand] and campfire (:

I LIKE the jumpshots taken and rebecca is an idiot :D AHAHAHA camp to her=bitching session :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i have to agree with ervin that campfire beats club because campfire rocks :D
and to him...maybe he love touching young girls :B
okay im done. too doos

i cant tell you how much i miss you

Thursday, June 04, 2009, 11:35 PM

because i want you to feel how much i miss you, words are nothing, baby.

WEE it's holiday. i cant wait to go out with EP and friends.
i want a tan!

im a confused kid.
DDDDDDDDDDD: anyone to confide?

i'm scared.