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i'm huiwen.
eighteen.
28march91.
attached <3.
redfoxventures.
temasekpolytechnic

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Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 10:41 PM

MY eyelids are heavy now.
everything seems to be happening.
seriously, you seems like you want to get back on me. but then only a petty man does that. have fun with your fake mask and childish attitude.

i cant wait to sleeeeeeeep but i still have a trillion things to do. %$$^%*()manzxwzxw
i want to sleep. if i can pon the lab tmr, i can have a good sleep but get killed immediately when i return to school.
RARRRRRRRRRR. tough man.

Sunday, July 26, 2009, 1:49 AM

YAY! every saturday is my cooking day with my dearest eggplant:D
fortunately, we were able to get 420 grams of mussels for 98 cents at cold storage.
and that pregnant man craved for salmon. LOL!
last week i also grilled salmon for him..he's not sick of salmon manZXWZXW D:
and so i bought a big slice of salmon and grilled peppered chicken.

RARARAR..i wanted to buy some alcohol but for a second thought. RAR!

okay anyway my baked mussels with mozzerella and cheddar toppings, and italian herbs were very successful :DDDD.

i know if bomb got to see this, she will pester me :D

cya tata..

all these times..what you have hold back

12:43 AM

yesterday i was hearing the truth of everything. blaming what i had done in the past which was why i deserve all hurtful words and actions.
however this partly have to thanks this girl whose thoughts are immature to make my life so miserable.

this girl played a part in his love life. she used to love him so much. waiting for his messages, hope that he will like her too one day. After much confession, they were together. soon they broke off because she two-timed. up till this part, upon hearing this story, i couldnt continue to be strong and brave.

he continued with his story..
he was heartbroken because it was his very first love. 3 days later, realising that he actually treat her better than the guy she two timed for, she requested for a patch-up. he agreed.
everytime the girl flirt around, talking about other guys in front of him, he would just keep quiet and his feelings were not uttered.
till one day, he knew that he didnt love her anymore. the feeling was too numb. he would not get jealous, heartaching or even angry at her.
and so they broke off.
all along, he had been nice to this girl yet she wasnt appreciating his love. till now, she doesnt understand what's the feeling to wanting to last long with someone and stay faithful.

i told him that it was the scar the girl left in his heart. nothing good but one big and healing scar.
anytime anything any actions will remind him about that scar.

now im unable to sleep. because of what he has told me.
the past influence the present and future.
that's not right.
throughout this whole journey, i pretend to be strong. and im not.
tears formed a pool. if it wasnt because of that girl, things would even turn out to be better.

trust wasnt there when i thought we were loving.
my heart was bleeding and it couldnt be seen by him.

now we are picking up the pace. im glad and touched.
why wouldnt this happen earlier, so i could save those time covering myself in the blanket, hugging my bolster for comfort?
we are meant to go through all these.
and now, i know we are ever ready.
because we have learnt to let go the past and appreciate our present and future.

you know this.. we are cool.

dying

Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 11:08 PM

IM FREAKING TIRED!

no matter what, i wont give a damn about you. cry in front of me, my heart will still be hard like stone. your pitiful act is not my weakness. because you dont worth it.

what you sow is what you get at the end of the day.
so this is the seed you sow. go and have a taste of your own medicine.
im not that huiwen you know. once, twice, thrice. how many chances have i given you? i should say, you dont know me. you didnt seize those chances, your problem.

save you - linkin park

Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 9:53 PM

okay.. enough of pictures. it's a long story why i ended up in Tan Tock Seng emergency department. but it was really tough when the doctor couldnt get the needle into the vessel and she was pulling it once and twice to make sure she got it in. UNFORTUNATELY..she couldnt and that's explain why i had a plaster on my right hand and it was swollen and bruise.

actually my left hand is a better option (some area near my brachioradialus muscle)..okay somewhere at the mid of your arm and hand where you can bend. she used a smaller needle and indeed it got thru :D told you.

you know why? HAHA because this is not the first time i stay overnight in a hospital..i think for a few times and there was twice for 8 days. HAHAHAHA.
okay maybe shattered memories came back when the needle got into my flesh.

seriously, i hate needles. i swear i cry like some weaklings but this time, i was BRAVE. in fact, i should say SUPER BRAVERY BIG BRAVE. FINALLY! i have overcome it. yet i still hate it now -.=

for that good 5 hours plus, i was lying like a vegetable because my left hand felt the sodium chloride pumping into my veins and i felt like i got several small but IMPACT punches on my arm.

my fever didnt subside..it was even worse. from 39.5 - 41.1 degree Celsius. 1 1/2 hour later, my body temperature still stuck in that high fever temperature range. so many nurses and medic came to me. -.= because they couldnt hear my heart beat clearly. RAR...LOW BLOOD PRESSURE.

"sorry..i dont think you can go home. you need another 2 bags of these (sodium chloride)"

okay. 2 bags after 2 bags = 4 bags of 500ml of o.o9% of NaCl
DIE DIE DIE.
i thought hui wen was dying. i still sent message to her current class rep, her ex class rep, her poly good friend and her boyfriend that she might be dying so please prepare to come visit her.

HAHAHAHA!
COOL I TELL YOU.

2.15 am. fever still not subsiding. and i felt like one of the H1N1 patients. i was wearing a mask, wet towel over my forehead, whole body covered with white blanket, a tube sticking out of my body and yet nothing had turned out well.

3 am. "still low in BP after 4 bags of NaCl..erm..still have fever. but better.."

5 mins later..."okay! you may go home :D"

COOL! CANT WAIT.

DAD and FATSO WERE SO WORRIED THAT THEY WENT TO NEWTON TO EAT SUPPER!
WHAT A GOOD EXCUSE TO USE. HAHAHA BOTH FATTY! HMPH!

1 hour later, DISCHARGED!
go home chiong report then sleep:D

p/S: first time having so many pills to eat D: sick of swallowing it. and both hands are aching like mad. eating bread, drinking plain water since saturday evening. SHIT DAYS.

whatever, all is none of your business

Wednesday, July 08, 2009, 12:22 AM

im contented. who im with and what im doing now.
with people who have hearts of gold, with trust given.
however you know that some people are bitches in disguise.
*small voice* OMG! How?

apparently, you are an unqualified teacher who is trying to judge how hardworking i am.
maybe even teachers cant judge. they never know if the students really did their work or just copy blindly from given notes or info from books/internet.

i can assure you that your eyes are always blind and you are in no position to judge anyone because you are such a rotten apple which has an empty core.
my business has got to do with me and my group mates, not to you - tom, dick, harry, jane or mary.

you just mind your own bloody bitchy business before incurring in my wrath.
and stop being hardworking when you merely copy things from some reference text that people have found for the group or what people have done and make those your own master pieces. it makes you stink. _|_ don't try too hard, dear.

what a country to visit

Saturday, July 04, 2009, 8:19 PM

HELLO PEEPS. i have kept my promise(: here it goes..

i like both stitch and scrump (:

HEHE..I think scrump and i have a better affinity.

people with braces sleep like this..EWWW...

fat-so wants to be a movie/drama director and so now she is k-ing books.

3 1/2 hours later...PHILIPPINES

roam around to be more familiarize with the area around the hotel we staying.

dinner at Z..okay let's forget about the restaurant name. the food is not nice either. i think the only food that is passable is its BBQ PORK. anyway this performance to make your mood on a light note [the food really turns me off..]

HAHAHA..some dumb ass XD but COOOL

WALAU EH. what comes around goes around... im another dumbass.

next morning 11/6 Philippine's national day

cute horse :D i like the BON BON on his head (:

TAU HUA with malay sugar syrup...PASSABLE?

Flag rising..

we are here at some historical place

FATTY and SIS

FORT SANTIAGO

i see YOU! HAHAHAHA..AGAIN. is it you?

YES SIOL! LOL so fated.

this is life of heaven and hell..

SLUMS WITH LOUSY AMENITIES and NO FACILITIES(hell)

HIGH-RISE BUILDINGS WITH GOOD FACILITIES AND AMENITIES (heaven)

hell is just on my left and heaven is on my right. in the middle, developing going to be developed.

War-of-Prisoners were locked in here and drowned to death due to the high tide of water and also it's an one way exit.

one way exit ^

in the afternoon we went to see the smallest volcano you can find on earth. it's located near philippines!

too fat..

TATA!!! so small.

the restaurant we dine in. COOOL! food is better this time round and i miss the german pig knuckles. SO SAVOURY!

WOOOTs!

p/s: i didnt take anymore photos because i was rather pissed off with the servers over there and the places of attraction are not attractive. k bye