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all these times..what you have hold back

Sunday, July 26, 2009, 12:43 AM

yesterday i was hearing the truth of everything. blaming what i had done in the past which was why i deserve all hurtful words and actions.
however this partly have to thanks this girl whose thoughts are immature to make my life so miserable.

this girl played a part in his love life. she used to love him so much. waiting for his messages, hope that he will like her too one day. After much confession, they were together. soon they broke off because she two-timed. up till this part, upon hearing this story, i couldnt continue to be strong and brave.

he continued with his story..
he was heartbroken because it was his very first love. 3 days later, realising that he actually treat her better than the guy she two timed for, she requested for a patch-up. he agreed.
everytime the girl flirt around, talking about other guys in front of him, he would just keep quiet and his feelings were not uttered.
till one day, he knew that he didnt love her anymore. the feeling was too numb. he would not get jealous, heartaching or even angry at her.
and so they broke off.
all along, he had been nice to this girl yet she wasnt appreciating his love. till now, she doesnt understand what's the feeling to wanting to last long with someone and stay faithful.

i told him that it was the scar the girl left in his heart. nothing good but one big and healing scar.
anytime anything any actions will remind him about that scar.

now im unable to sleep. because of what he has told me.
the past influence the present and future.
that's not right.
throughout this whole journey, i pretend to be strong. and im not.
tears formed a pool. if it wasnt because of that girl, things would even turn out to be better.

trust wasnt there when i thought we were loving.
my heart was bleeding and it couldnt be seen by him.

now we are picking up the pace. im glad and touched.
why wouldnt this happen earlier, so i could save those time covering myself in the blanket, hugging my bolster for comfort?
we are meant to go through all these.
and now, i know we are ever ready.
because we have learnt to let go the past and appreciate our present and future.

you know this.. we are cool.