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wee hours
Friday, August 07, 2009, 1:34 AM
now im having trillion and zillions of work to do. can i just take a break from all this shit?for these few weeks ever since after term test, im working like slaves to pull up my gpa.
cool enough at one go, i settled 2 projects and a few reports.
this is freaking killing ME!
at this wee hour, im still chionging my log book so i can be one of those good student. hardworking?
HAHAHA. huiwen is never hardworking. i always give up when i try to be like one D:
WEEEE..it feel super duper good to stay alone in a room, surfing the net while doing my bloody stupid work.
but this feeling is not as good as having someone to skype with you like EP:D
im such a crazy bitch because i often have mood swing (because i dont get my sleep...not even a wink) and become a little paranoid. LOL!
but im still me of course. not losing the properties of myself.
RAR im dying.
everything now is not in my comfort zone. i crazily struggle to get what i want..even food.
i show lose of interest in home cook food and started to binge eat in school.
for your info, binge eating means eating in large amount at once and refusal to eat most of the time.
but when my carvings come back for home cooked food, my mum will not even call me wake up for dinner which she usually does and let me sleep till i thought i missed school the next day [in my dreams. it's usually about 8 plus 9?]
wonder if one day i will be suffering from some nervosa because i really dont feel like eating now.
but how can someone whose study specialize in food science and nutrition give up in eating?
RAR..im getting evem more paranoid when i learn about microbiology.
everytime, if i use soap, i will wash my hands in the correct method before i start to imagine that pathogenic microbes are multiplying on the surface of my skin.
freak.
then when i was exposed more to the nutrition side, i always thought that i was such a fatty and it's time to cut down weight when my bmi is only 19.5 [my weight is about 51 now and height is 162..previously my BMI about 20.3]?
ideal bmi yet not content. maybe because i brought myself back to secondary school days when i was a fatty bombom. WTH.
remember that i yelled at pris, pissed off with her for not eating her meals on regular basis.
her health status was worrying me because i started to see her as some old haggards. her face was yellowish, hair was dropping and fringe part nearly bald, her eyes were always tired, she was left with little fats and muscles because her protein was not spared and it was used to provide her energy. that period, i was suspecting that she was having anorexic nervosa.
so now pris might want to take a full revenge. she can yell and scream at me.
but im on medical terms now. i felt this way because there's side effect. all the time im feeling nausea (michelle said that it was morning sickness. because i was joking telling them that i prefer a shot gun marriage) HAHAHA!
at this point now, im still stuck at practical 7 and having 3 conclusions each of 3 practicals undone D:
what sia... MA DE.
and im super naggy today because it's again, FRIDAY!
how many fridays do i have before my main exam? =.=
p/s: i thought that i could take care of my nephew but my sis-in-law is a special woman with weird thinkings who prefers a baby sitter who is not blood related to her or her child to us who will love her child like ours. conclusion: women who are very successful in carreer more than marriage are usually having some problems in their psychological thinking.
BAD SHIT. my mum was ranting about not seeing her grandson and apparently she forgot that Issac is the name of her grandson. maybe she always assume that JJ was his christian name -.=
BYE-s